Basilisk
I have patrolled Boston four times. Each getting more progress, but at times I feel it's frustrated. Yes, I saved a life, yes I stared into the soul of would-be criminal to prevent him from starting a crime. Yet, I felt like I did sloppy. There are people out there who been thru worse, murders, kidnappings, drive-bys. With the money going to the train, I wonder if I should go back to Taunton since it's closer & I can do more work. Then a shooting in Roxbury, made me feel like the worst piece of shit imaginable, even more than usual. I don't know how to feel. Leaving the city I sort of consider a lover, & yet I don't if it's high maintenance. But like any relationship, when you love a person despite their faults, that is true love. Maybe I do feel Batman, saying Boston is "My City." But I am not a jealous lover like Batman. I welcome any. If I fail this city, what chance do I deserve to fall into love with a real girl, someone who I can truly be happy with, faults & all. I wish I had the answers.